...it feels...like when you spell a word wrong? ...you know something isn't right...but...you don't know what..

I spent almost a year, getting over a guy. I haven't heard from him in a couple months..he desides to text me. we end up going out that night...just...on the town...and...he's found his way back in my head. ...and i just don't understand it. ...i can't love him. he doesn't love me. he always has his eyes set on...someone ells or something ells...but then...why does he keep coming back? looking for me when i stop talking? if i look infront of me, i see this little leather bound book. ...in this book, there is a collection of poetry i've brought together for my own personal enjoyment with the permision of all of the writers of course. ...but when i look back through...and i read a few...all of these stupid poems remind me of him. ...but they remind me of myself also. ...what's wrong with me? is there an answer? am i simply stupid? for loving a guy for almost two years that has on and off shown feelings for me... or am i brilliant? too much compassion? ...i don't know. ...my head has been buzzing all day. gnight for now. wish me luck
what happened to my amazing mood?

...a teddy bear, all it's good for...the thing i'm called on a day to day bassis...they missed a few parts. ...because no matter how much you want it to, a teddy bear can't make you warm. it can't react or think or respond, it can't send a surge of hot pleasure through your body with a kiss...it can't keep you warm like it was meant to...
...maybe that's why they call me teddy. ...no one has teddy bears anymore. ...could i be a better generation of teddy bear? i was looking for one the other day in the store...and i have red hair. so...my trade mark for people's birthday gifts and...so on...is a teddy bear. ...has anyone noticed that you can't find auburn haired teddy bears anymore? you can find cherry red. ...but you can't find the teddy bears that make you feel...warm...anymore. ...where did they put them all? where did they go?